About 2 years into my Bikram Yoga practice, I was leading a fairly busy life, and my commitment to myself of regularly practicing Bikram yoga had been taking the brunt. I would come for a few months or weeks and then stop for a month or weeks.
Then one day I was in a studio that had the five qualities of mind (Concentration, Faith, Self-discipline, Patience, and Determination) painted on the wall and I had placed my mat directly in front of the word "Determination."
I’m a total nerd when it comes to the origin and roots of words and, having a few minutes before the class started, I began thinking about the word in depth. I have always thought of determination in its standard definition “firmness of purpose; resoluteness” but if you break down the word you have:
The prefix “De-“ which means: off, the opposite of, to cease, to stop. The word Terminate: coming to an end or capable of ending, stopping. And the suffix “-tion”: the action of….
Which means: determination is the action of stopping... stopping. Stop stopping.
While this may seem simple nuance for some. For me, it was profound. “Resoluteness” is great but “Stop Stopping” is actionable: I can DO that! And I have, and will continue to do so. I am pleased to announce that since having come to this realization I have had the gumption to continue a regular practice, push through some personal boundaries of my own, and improve my understanding of the postures and my own body.
I ended up opening a yoga studio with my wife, along with a baby, a full-time job, little money and never more than 24 hours in a day. We stopped stopping. Now every day we get to witness the successes of our students who have stopped stopping, too.
Determination is limitless. Try it on for size.
Bikram Yoga St. Johns' studio owner, yoga-doer and life-lover, Kay D.